Here we go!
Netflix: a blessing and a curse. Everyone at our house has our less than stellar programs that we like to watch just like "regular" television. Too bad Punky likes Pound Puppies!
Okay, you all are going to be so sick of hearing about it but.... I love my job. I love the fact that I got a job, but I also love, love, love that I found the "just right" job for me! Easy? no, it won't be easy. There will be long nights, tears, and at some point I am going to wonder what I got myself into. But I am a go-getter and I am probably going to face those same fears, obstacles and insecurities no matter what I do or where I work! Two and a half weeks ago I accepted a position at a very small project based learning school. I will be teaching grades K-4. Yeah, that is the truth. So will I be overwhelmed? Yes. But will I also encounter the very things that brought me to my love of teaching? Yes.
Tomorrow my colleague and I are going to do some planning and mapping for our first semester. I am beyond excited about it. I even have an idea or two to bring to the table. I am a rookie, but it's all new in this school right now so my new ideas are not that much different than what anyone else brings!
Energy. I have been SO TIRED of late. I think it is (in part) because the ideas never stop swirling around in my mind. I think it is also (in part) because in my mid-forties I am in the middle of a life change that brings hormone imbalances galore. And I have a child that makes me tired ALL. THE. TIME. If I say black, she'll say white, just to make sure there is some conflict going on. IF I had more energy I could pursue the painting project over the summer, since I finally bought paint for the walls.
So many things I am having a hard time trusting God for, which is a lack of faith. Eeks. I don't like hearing that! God brought me a job and I've been begging and pleading for a job. So I need to believe that I can do it, that I will make it financially, that I really tough enough and that it is "the right one." I know it is, but doubt is crowding in like crazy. At Hobby Lobby on Saturday (love that store, I really SHOULDN'T go there), I found this wall hanging:
|(and can I just say.... $2.97 on clearance.... I couldn't "let it go.")|